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| Sooo it's been a month and a couple of weeks/days since i've seen mikey. well duh, he lives in florida.
This weekend happens to be his 21st birthday. YAY. fuckenally. fucken+finally. gay.
Anyway..my plan a couple of months ago was to go to florida for his birthday since my work would be closed coz of national boards for the 15th and 16th.. I had plans with chabeli to surprise him, but as time went on, I realized oh shit what if i have to work those days so i never bought plane tickets. All of a sudden (last week) I was told that my boss would be going out the country so we wouldn't be going to work after all. wooww. I talked to Chabeli and told her.. the next day she told me that her and cj would buy me my plane tickets to go there for Mikey's birthday (as a surprise birthday present).. rather than taking him to Tampa for Busche Gardens.. Supposedly all he wants is for me to be there on his 21st coz that's all he's been saying all week...which made me smile like a lil fucken girl. CUTE. I've never been a gift before! lol
Soooo Friday May 15th, 2009 at about 6:45 am, I will be flying out to JAX. Haha 3rd time out to florida within the last 6 months. What in the hell... I'm only out there till sunday evening. Which by the way, i'm putting up with 15 hrs of flight time & waiting at 2 different airports just for this fucker. Love, maybe? Yep. i'm flyin out from orlando to lax stayin there for about an hour, then out to san diego for 45 minutes just so i could wait 5/6 hours till i leave for sfo (good thing my bestfriend lives in san diego, coz she's gonna swoop so we can chill for a while)..which I have to take a shuttle from the airport to bart just so i can transfer onto another train to get back home... i'm not gonna bother asking anyone to pick me up from the airport.. I needa start growing up and doing things on my own. I can't be dependent on others forever.
Okay 2 things I'm doing all these crazy things for. My lovely boyfriend and my soon to be independent self.
I'm so excited to see him and spend his 21st with him and his 2 bestfriends. I'm so happy because he's honestly the sweetest dude i've ever been with.. n i'm not just sayin that coz he's my first boyfriend since my last one 6 years ago or because I might be bitter about the other guys i've talked to.. he really is. From what I know, he's honest with me. I hope he tells me everything lol. Who woulda thought tho? haha Myspace messages turned to romance. It almost sounds desperate coz I mean myspace? Kinda sounds a lil embarassing because myspace is involved, but what takes away from the embarassment is my happiness and that's all that really matters. I finally found someone after so long..only downer is that he's 2000 miles away! :( Patience truly is a virtue. If I wasn't patient and was desperate, i'd prollie be with the wrong person.
Long distance is hard but it brings about so much importance in a relationship. It can either make or break you. I've heard so many stories of failed LD relationships, but those are relationships that started out as them living in the same area but one of the two had to move. I've never heard of relationships that started out as a long distance before, so i'm hoping this turns out better than what i've heard of LDR's.. Trust isn't really a big issue coz we both got that for each other. The DOWNs in a long distance relationships are just as much as UPs in one. For instance, it sucks that you guys can't see each other whenever you want..But it makes seeing each other for the first time in a long time so much better. It sucks that ya'll can't be intimate as much as you want because well, you guys are in two different places in the world...but once you guys are, the level of intimacy is heightened. Not knowing what the other is really doing is annoying as hell, but that just puts a test in the trust you guys have for each other. Some people can't take the distance..neither can I but i'm willing to put up with all of it for him because I want us to work. I want to be with him even if it means just a few days every once in a while.
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| my first visit to florida...my first time meetin n hugging mikey (:
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| So today is daphne n mikes last day in florida. I'm kinda disappointed and feel bad coz I don't feel like they had fun.
I...Am having fun...but not really.
I thought that by coming here, I'd have so much fun coz I have something (more like someone) to look forward to being with n spend hella time with...umm but no.
I feel like I spent more time waiting rather than having fun. This is some bullshit. The whole trip all I did was have mixed feelings. Its been such a rollercoaster, I'd be happy one minute then one little thing changes everything. I noticed something...and I'm pretty sure mike n daphne noticed it too.
I guess I got my hopes up way too much thinking that my second time here would be the same as the first, but it's just been hella different.
I have so many suspicions and as much as I don't wanna believe it, I keep thinking about how many clues there are.
Well he's on his way here...or atleast I think he is so ill finish my laundry and write more later. | | |
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